TESTS AND TRIALS A LOVELY SHORT MORAL STORY
Years ago, during the Gulf War, I spent some time earning just enough money to pay my rent and bills, but not enough for sufficient food.
I was living on limited rations of beans, cheap vegetables, and pasta. I was happy, content with what Allah had decreed for me, and spent my free time reading Sahih Bukhari and other Islamic texts. I believed that m
oney wasn't important.
Then during a tahajjud prayer, I had a realization that I needed money to secure my future; money was a necessary tool to ensure I would be able to live and practice my Islam, especially as a single woman. Subhaan Allah, within one week
I had been offered a job paying three times as much, working as the Executive Assistant for the Chairman and CEO of an accounting firm, Ernst & Young's Middle East Head Office. I didn't know what to think;
I was scared. Friends were saying al hamdul'Illah and congratulating me on Allah blessing me with such an opportunity. I sat thinking about the part in the Qur'an where Allah says if you are astray then He will give you more worldly things to increase your punishment on Yawm al Qiyamah.
I didn't know if it was a blessing or a punishment. It took much prayer and careful attention to all the signs to realize that part of the test lay in me using the much larger salary responsibly and in working in a professional environment without compromising my Islam.
My daughter recently reflected on this subject and asked me how her doll can be a test. I told her to think about it for a moment, after which she almost instantly said that it is a test because she could spend too much time playing with it instead of doing her work. It could also be a test because she could be tempted to put a face on it and try to make it more realistic. Just a simple doll, a child's toy, but most surely a test.
Although it isn't always easy to see the test in a blessing, it is like a pulse - sometimes hard to find, but it is always there.
May Allah, subhaana wa ta'ala, open our eyes to the tests He sends us and increase our emaan, taqwa, and tawakkal in order to pass them - ameen.